Thought of you, always

This is disturbing my mind.
You are always running in my mind.
I couldn't concentrate on my work.
I need to let out my thoughts of you.

I can't stop thinking about you everyday!
I love you, Jon. ^^

I smirked to myself while I was at work today.
Thinking about how silly you were this morning.
Poor guy.


I was getting ready for work this morning when I heard his alarm rang.
"That's strange. Did he set alarm for his game?", I thought. Since he's on break.
His alarm rang again and again for the third time.
Confused, before I left, I asked him,
"Babe, why did you set alarm?"
"I dream that you ask me to set alarm. So I set.", he answered while he was half asleep.
Silly guy. That's why I love him even more.

There are so many things he has done for me even when he thinks he didn't do enough for me.
I feel so blessed to have him as my husband.
Now I just can't wait till the day of our wedding reception to be his forever officially!

The force was with us.

It's been some time since I watch midnight movie like this.

It was a long day for me. I woke up earlier than usual hoping to reach office early so that I could leave early from work. Unfortunately, terrible traffic slows me down.

I usually reached office at 9:30am-ish when I left home at 9am. Yesterday I left at 7:50am! I still reached at 9:30am-ish. What sorcery is this! There wasn't any accidents spotted along the route. I suppose it's just because of the road construction. Terrible.

After work, I rushed to class. Luckily, the traffic was considered okay. Though obviously it's still jam. Where in KL won't ? I still managed to reach class on time. Just in time. For dictation quiz. Sobs.

Then rush back home, took my clothes and hop on to my friend's car and off we go to another friend's house to shower and dinner! It's a good thing that we got to freshen up before the late movie. I would have feel so uncomfortable.

The host made us dinner last night! It was delicious! #hougamdong we got homecooked food! It's spicy tomato sauce spaghetti. Then we waited at his place for 12am to come and Jon to arrive before we meet the rest at the cinema.

With these bunch of crazy friends, we watched Star Wars: The Force Awaken. JENG JENG JENG!

Thanks to the uncle who helped us to take this picture!

I didn't watch the first 6 episodes but I got "lecture" about it, thanks for the hardwork, Mr.Orange. So it was all good. At least I know roughly how the story is about. Though I still have questions while I was watching it. BUT THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME!

Usually I would be afraid to watch because of the let down just because the hype was too much, but this is still great! Recommended!


I'm pretty much floating right now in office because of the lack of sleep. My attention span is getting shorter. The force left me. *sleepy*

Put it on and give me a CiUM!

I received a call regarding my parcel that had arrived at home. I was excited. It arrived faster than I have expected!

It was the CiUM lip balm.

P/S: Cium means kiss in malay

 

                           

I am not the kind of girl that put on lip balm everyday even when I know it would make the lips look moistened and soft. I usually only put it on when it's cracked. Bad attitude there. Anyway, why the sudden interest on this lip balm? ... BECAUSE IT'S INTERESTING.

I saw it online some days ago and then after reading the story on how the innovation sparked, I got even more interested to try it out. Just to have a feel if it's really that fun.

38,000ft. 2 more hours away from Sandra. The kiss Tom has been waiting for months. Tom finally gets to make his kissing experience more memorable with Sandra. 

Thank goodness for CiUM

Somewhere while I was reading review for this lip balm, I got to know that this Tom was/is a pilot and that Sandra in this context, was/is also a pilot from another country. They're a couple!

That in quote, I pretty much read from their box. 

                                

So I got on to their online website and look for the product. They have quite some flavors to choose from.

OH! Hold on... I forgot to mention what's so interesting about this lip balm haven't I?

Besides moistening the lips, what interesting about this lip balm is its flavor! Comes in a packet of two lip balms - the one I chose was Strawberry and Chocolate, 

                                   

                                  

first off, get your partner to choose a flavor and apply it to the lips!

Apply the other flavor to your own lips. AND MUACKS! Kiss! Feel the taste of the lip balm on your partner's lips while your partner tastes yours. What's fun is the taste mixed! It's really funky.

The flavours available are:
- Strawberry
- Meeko (Chocolate)
- Sambal
- Ais

I tried it on with my hubby the other day. He hesitated at first. I guess he must be thinking "What are you trying to do now? *suspicious thought*", I don't know. But he granted my request and selected chocolate. So I had the strawberry flavored one. Then, we kissed! Funky. It tasted like lychee on chocolate. Interesting huh?

No worries for the singles. You can try it on your own too. Just apply different flavor to upper and lower lips, then put them together like you're saying "mmmmm" and feel the flavor burst! I'm gonna do that too!

It makes me wonder..

This is another emo post. Just recently the thought struck me again. Did I annoy anyone?

I've possibly had said countless times that I'm an emo person. I'm an introvert. I don't like to be in the crowd, neither am I adventurous enough to give a speech or even to just stand on the stage when everyone's eyes are on me.

I'm lucky to be able to get married to that one person whom I can share all my thoughts with. Besides him, I don't think I have any true best friend. How many really knows me well anyway. It makes me wonder, what have I done throughout my life? I've been given over 20 years to make friends. In the end I'm rather alone. Honestly, I could really just be alone.

Best friends are people whom you always think of, someone you share everything with, someone you don't mind going out of the way for. I have someone like that in my mind but I don't dare to admit that they have me in their mind the same way.

It has been bothering me for very long time. I guess I finally can't hold the thought back anymore.
Really, what is wrong with me.

It's been a while since I write my inner thoughts. It must have been annoying to see that I'm such a drama queen now, "Everybody hates me" kind of thoughts, but that's really how I feel now.

Randomly, what have I been doing with my life?

I'm legally married!

Sorry for the delayed post. I just want to update my blog that another great event of my life happened last Friday! The long awaited day came! I'm now legally Mrs. Lee. 

The preparation was pretty much the most excited ones since I got my girls to get excited with me. Nevertheless, both Jon and I anticipated this very day very much. 

It started few months back where we had decided to be solemnised at the temple for our Registration of Marriage. From then on, the image of us standing in front of the officer and reciting the "I do" had been playing in my mind. I was that exicted. I was actually worried that we have to mention that very line in Chinese, that the whole process would be in Chinese. 

So a month ago, the girls got excited about it and decided to have a hairdo day! Where we got all girly and try out hairdo that would be simple enough for me to do alone for the ROM. That was fun. 

Here's my preparation. 

A white dress, a ribbon flower hand bouquet, which I handmade then myself, the hairdo which I finally decided to go with, and last but not least, my bride and groom nail art, which I love it so much!

The process on that day were quite simple. We ended up spend most of our time taking photos around the temple. 

But nevertheless, I am glad we finally pull it through the first phase. :)

Thanks for being my other half, Jon. 

That night, we went for a celebration with our friends at Soul'ed Out. It was an awesome night. 

That night, their mission was to make Jon drunk. Instead, I dug my own grave. How? Thanks to my big mouth and curiousity. 

We all ordered our drinks as usual. I don't know their game plan. I had a cosmopolitan long island - tasted so-so. Jon had his asam boi mojito - which tasted weird by the way, too acidic. 

Suddenly, a jäger bomb appeared in front on Jon. A friend had ordered one for him.  Jon had to finish that bottoms up. So he did! Seeing that he was still alright after the drink, they ordered 6 tequilla shots for him. I was already curious by then as I've never tasted those two before, thanks to my big mouth saying that I wanted to try, they ordered another set! A jäger bomb and 6 shots of tequilla. 

I downed the Jäger bomb. 😨 The aftertaste was weird. It tasted like some cough mixture. I don't like it. I then try the tequilla shots. As I was told, lick the salt, down the shot, suck the lime. The lime tasted weird after the shots. I just downed the 6 tequillas without the lime. Which is quite okay. 

Seeing that I was still sobber, even though I've said I was drunk countless times, they ordered another drink, a bourbon. I had a sip. I dislike it as it tasted like whisky. Whisky made me feels sick now. I didn't drink the bourbon. Good thing another friend arrived after that and downed it for me 😁. 

It was really a great night though I got hangover the next day. 

2 other friends who came late that night couldn't be in the picture. But thank you guys for the awesome night! Took some of my first time away! ☺️

Mixed feelings

I'm EXCITED! I'm nervous. I'm anticipating this Friday to come.

This Friday is the day that I will have to say goodbye to the "Single" title. I would need to remind myself that I have to check a different option in the marital status option.

I'm going to be legally bind to my love, Jonathan. I can't wait actually. Whether he will be my balls and chain or I be his, I'm glad we're together.

Of course, this is just another step in our relationship. More to come, firmer and stronger I do hope.

And for short goal, I hope everything goes well this Friday!


PS: I love you, Jonathan.

Lyrics: 12:30 - B2st

Ohh.. My love for B2st is back! I'm a fan of emo song. Not to make myself emo, but songs like this is so easy to sing along. At least, to me.

Here's the lyrics:


English Translation:

The glass bottle that breaks into pieces with a loud noise, is that how we are like
The low sky feels like it’s going to break down soon
You who had asked why I came now, you who had said you waited for me, you who had welcomed my love
Now you are colder than a person you meet for the first time

Your bright smile, your warm body (your face too)
I’m afraid that I won’t be able to see and touch it anymore

Right now we are like the clock hands at 12:30
we have our backs to each other, looking at different places and trying to let go of everything
We are like the clock hands at 12:30,
walking towards the place where we won’t be able to return to

Feels like the time that had followed us also stopped
More than us I guess we’re now you and I
Feels like all the things that had passed by without much thought has stopped, rather than pass by
Your hands were very warm
I knew that you were being shaken, that’s why I grabbed onto it tighter
I held you, I locked you up, my love became more poisonous
Yeah, I know it’s all my fault
But these feelings left behind can’t let go of hope

Your bright smile, your warm body (your face too)
I’m afraid that I won’t be able to see and touch it anymore

Right now we are like the clock hands at 12:30
we have our backs to each other, looking at different places and trying to let go of everything
We are like the clock hands at 12:30,
walking towards the place where we won’t be able to return to

Someday separation
The time that would someday get on its knees in front of me
I believe that it will start flowing again like us, I believe that time will come like that
Even though I’m letting go right now, I’m letting go of you, even though everything has stopped
I believe that the broken clock will move again

Right now we are like the clock hands at 12:30
We have our backs turned to each other, looking at different places and trying to let go of everything
We are like the clock hands at 12:30,
walking towards the place where we won’t be able to return to

Romanized:

Yoranhan soril naemyeo kkaejineun yuribyeong uri moseubilkka
Natge kkallin haneuri geumbangirado buseojil geot gateunikka
Wae ijeya wannyamyeo nal gidaryeotdamyeo nae sarang bangyeotdeon neoneun ije
Eojjeoda majuchin moreuneun saramboda chagapge eoreoitda

Hwanhan ne misodo (hwanhan misodo)
Ttatteutan ne pumdo (ne eolguldo)
Deo isang bol sudo manjil sudo
Eobseul geotman gata duryeowo

Jigeum urin machi yeoldusi samsipbunui sigyetbaneulcheoreom
Seoro deung dolligo dareun goseul bogo modeun geol beoriryeogo hajanha
Urin machi yeoldusi samsipbunui sigyetbaneulcheoreom
Dasin doraol su eomneun goseuro georeogago itjanha

Uril ttara heulleogadeon sigando meomchwonna bwa
Uriragibodan ijen neowa naega dwaenna bwa
Sasohage jinagan modeun geotdeuri da jinagagibodan nochin geot gata
Ne soni cham ttatteutaesseonna bwa
Heundeullineun neol imi arasseo geuraeseo deo kkwak jabasseo
Neol anasseo neol gadwosseo nae sarangi dokhaejyeoseo
Yeah i know modu nae tasin geol
But miryeoniran geo huimangiran geo noheul suga eobseo

Hwanhan ne misodo (hwanhan misodo)
Ttatteutan ne pumdo (ne eolguldo)
Deo isang bol sudo manjil sudo
Eobseul geotman gata duryeowo

Jigeum urin machi yeoldusi samsipbunui sigyetbaneulcheoreom
Seoro deung dolligo dareun goseul bogo modeun geol beoriryeogo hajanha
Urin machi yeoldusi samsipbunui sigyetbaneulcheoreom
Dasin doraol su eomneun goseuro georeogago itjanha

Eonjenga ibyeori [Dongwoon] nae ape mureup kkurheul ttae sigani
Dasi uril ttara heureuge doel geora mideo geureoke ol geora mideo
Jigeum bonaejiman neoreul bonaetjiman modeun ge da meomchwotjiman
Gojang na beorin sigyega dasi umjigil georago mideo

Jigeum urin machi yeoldusi samsipbunui sigyetbaneulcheoreom
Seoro deung dolligo dareun goseul bogo modeun geol beoriryeogo hajanha
Urin machi yeoldusi samsipbunui sigyetbaneulcheoreom
Dasin doraol su eomneun goseuro georeogago itjanha

Cr: Romanized and translation - kpoplyrics

Hangul:

요란한 소릴 내며 깨지는 유리병 우리 모습일까
낮게 깔린 하늘이 금방이라도 부서질 것 같으니까
왜 이제야 왔냐며 날 기다렸다며 내 사랑 반겼던 너는 이제
어쩌다 마주친 모르는 사람보다 차갑게 얼어있다

환한 네 미소도 (환한 미소도) 따뜻한 네 품도 (네 얼굴도)
더 이상 볼 수도 만질 수도 없을 것만 같아 두려워

지금 우린 마치 12시 30분의 시곗바늘처럼
서로 등 돌리고 다른 곳을 보고 모든 걸 버리려고 하잖아
우린 마치 12시 30분의 시곗바늘처럼
다신 돌아올 수 없는 곳으로 걸어가고 있잖아

우릴 따라 흘러가던 시간도 멈췄나 봐 우리라기보단 이젠 너와 내가 됐나 봐
사소하게 지나간 모든 것들이 다 지나가기보단 놓친 것 같아 네 손이 참 따뜻했었나 봐
흔들리는 널 이미 알았어 그래서 더 꽉 잡았어 널 안았어 널 가뒀어 내 사랑이 독해져서
Yeah I know 모두 내 탓인 걸 But 미련이란 거 희망이란 거 놓을 수가 없어

환한 네 미소도 (환한 미소도) 따뜻한 네 품도 (네 얼굴도)
더 이상 볼 수도 만질 수도 없을 것만 같아 두려워

지금 우린 마치 12시 30분의 시곗바늘처럼
서로 등 돌리고 다른 곳을 보고 모든 걸 버리려고 하잖아
우린 마치 12시 30분의 시곗바늘처럼
다신 돌아올 수 없는 곳으로 걸어가고 있잖아

언젠가 이별이 내 앞에 무릎 꿇을 때 시간이
다시 우릴 따라 흐르게 될 거라 믿어 그렇게 올 거라 믿어
지금 보내지만 너를 보냈지만 모든 게 다 멈췄지만
고장 나 버린 시계가 다시 움직일 거라고 믿어

지금 우린 마치 12시 30분의 시곗바늘처럼
서로 등 돌리고 다른 곳을 보고 모든 걸 버리려고 하잖아
우린 마치 12시 30분의 시곗바늘처럼
다신 돌아올 수 없는 곳으로 걸어가고 있잖아


CR: exoticlyrics

Greek yogurt

While I was deciding on what flavour to go for my yogurt the other day at cold storage, I saw Greek Yogurt placed next to it. Curious as I was what's the difference between them, I did not get one the other day. I grabbed my usual yogurt and check out at the counter. Not so adventurous. 

Today, I walked passed the yogurt section again and I decided to grab one to try. 

I wasn't a fan of yogurt and I already have imagine how would the taste be like. I was afraid that it would be thick and creamy and smells fermented and sour. I grabbed one with raspberry taste just so that it would be a little fruity instead of the plain one which I was afraid it would turn into horror. 

I gave it a try during tea break. I am not used to the taste at all! Sour. Definitely. My horror is haunting me for real. It has that strong fermented taste which lingers on your throat after. Even so, I think its health benefit is better than regular yogurt. 

Plain greek yogurt has more protein, half the carbs and half the sodium of regular ones though regular yogurt has more calcium than greek yogurt.

I'll stick to regular yogurt for now, until I feel more adventurous. 

"...Someone broke into the house"

Last night, I was working later than usual. My dad texted me if I wanted to join them for dinner, I passed as I don't think I could make it on time. I've decided to ask my dad if he could do a take away for me instead. Which he did.

I came home, being hungry, my dad asked me if I took his netbook to work. "No, why would I want your old netbook? I would have taken mine", I replied.

"My netbook is missing. I think someone broke into the house.", My dad said next. "WHAAATTT???", I was surprised. I literally raised my voice. So I told dad to calm down and ask my brothers if they had came over. Which in result, none of them stopped by.

Feeling suspicious, we checked the whole house if anything else is missing. It was really strange to deduce that it was break in since all the gates, grills and windows remained locked from inside. My brother's room were closed that's why the whole suspicion if my brother came back home today. Then we saw a foot print above my brother's room door. That's when we knew the thief came in from the attic.

We didn't know what time it happened but for sure he didn't complete what he intended to do. Later on we saw a package outside at the car porch, wrapped with my dad's tshirt.

After poking it and judging from the form of the package, we concluded it's my dad's shoes. We waited for police to came over before we open it.

Indeed it was my dad's shoes. But no sign of my dad's netbook in there. He must have taken the small items and escaped from the attic. Police checked the house - not really thoroughly - then they left. Then my dad only discovered that his digital camera was also missing. Then I noticed my old smartphone also has disappeared. Possibly some other miscellaneous items that we have overlooked was also taken from the theft.

The valuables missing wasn't much but it makes us feels as though the house is vulnerable and kept us on high alert from now. Good thing none of us is harmed.

You guys out there becareful too!

Difference between programmer and software engineer

Graduated as a computer science degree holder, I sometimes have the difficulty explaining my job scope to others. It's not their problem to not know what I do, it's mine. 

When I mention to my friends who weren't from this field, that I'm a software engineer, they relate me to, well, engineers. Sadly, I'm not. I'm far from being an engineer, I do not get the I.R status no matter how many books I read or write. To be simple, I often tell them I'm a programmer. 

The fact that I know I'm not just a programmer but I don't know how to explain what I do because I don't know better. 

Today, going for my language class, I came across this dilemma again. I don't know how to say my occupation in the class. I'm tempted to just name it "Programmer" again. But this time, I didn't. In fact, I stick to "Software Engineer" no matter how difficult it is to pronounce it and I was ready to explain what my job does. 

See, being a "Programmer" and "Software Engineer" is different. Anyone can code. Anyone can be a programmer. As long as you have the technical skills. A software engineer requires more than that. You need to know how to take and intepret requirements from stakeholder. You'll need to understand the process to develop a solution that fulfils their needs. A good software engineer needs to understand the in and out of the solution  and consequences of the development processes. A software engineer would apply the software development lifecycle to appropriate project based on stakeholder's needs so that each process is thoroughly weigh through.

Now, I realize people are starting to know what is software engineering. I'm glad that my teacher did not relate me to any Engineering field, but she knows that I'm dealing with the ICT industry at least. 

So I'll proudly say that I am a software engineer when people ask me about it and I will be prepared to explain it because I know my job better now. 

Scam on LinkedIn

You know it sounds too good to be true when a Head of Business Operations of a well known bank adds you on social network and messages you that she/he needed help FROM YOU!

I mean, if you're not a well known person, why would they want to look for you anyway. Of course, a scam.

I've said in my previous post before about scams like this. They usually prey on victim that are not aware of such scams, victim that doesn't doubt things that falls in the category of "too good to be true". Really, people, you got to be aware of this ! Don't be their prey. Do your research before you trust (you really shouldn't trust strangers) them.

Here's what I got from LinkedIn today.

I've accepted connection request from a person named Lisa Sang, claiming to be Head of Business Operations from Standard Charted Bank in Hong Kong. Nothing seems to be wrong so far. After all, there are head hunters randomly adding people in LinkedIn.

Later that afternoon, I got a message from Lisa Sang. Here's how the message goes:

If you can't see the image, here's the message:

"Dear friend, (I'm not your friend)

Thank you for accepting my connection.

I bring you greetings from Hong Kong. (Up until here I feel great. 'Wow, from Hong Kong. That's international!')

I am Ms. Lisa Sang, Head of Business Operations(Private Banking Services) at the Standard Charted Bank (Hong Kong) Ltd.. (Wow, someone with high position messaged me! )

I need a foreign partner that I can trust, can I trust you? Kindly contact me on my email: lisasang12@gmail.com for more info.

I have a proposal for you.

I hope to hear from you soon.

God bless you.

Regards,
Lisa "

Doesn't it sounds fishy that a head of business operations from HK, uses personal Gmail for contact? Definitely this is not an official business.

A little google search (before I could even finish up my search keyword) "lisa sang ..." - "Lisa Sang standard charted" pops up as suggestion and it's in a website that reveals about scams. Well, that just means I'm not the only one.

I'll hotlink the link here: http://1sc.org/e-mail-scams/inheritance-scam/

Look at the trends from the replies. It seems that this person have multiple identity with same story. Be it Lisa Liang or Lisa Sang, this Lisa definitely up to no good. BE WARNED.

It has arrived!

HOHOHO.. My parcel has arrived!!

My noodle has arrived! *Noodle? Parcel?*  Yes! It's none other than 불닭볶음면! Spicy fire noodle! Or let me translate literally with my noob korean understanding. Fire Chicken Fried Noodle! 

Yes, you're suppose to eat it dry, though not literally fried. 

I can't wait to try them out. But, I wanna try it with my daredevil spicy-lover-though-can't-really-eat-spicy, my fiancé. So I'll wait for my chance. Let's see when will I have the chance. Huhus. *hint hint*

                     

Bridezilla-O-Meter

Hey there, some of you might have known, I'm getting married soon. Never would I thought this day would actually come and I'm glad that I have found the one to walk with me for the rest of the journey of my life.

I've always thought that being bridezilla (Used to describe a woman whose behavior becomes outrageously bad in the course of planning for her wedding.) is so overrated. That is as if you want to have a perfect dream wedding and you want to control every event that will occur on the wedding day and I guess you would turn into one.

I might be getting there though. But I guess with all the helps from my friends and the advises I got, the meter wouldn't be able to achieve it. It may be too soon for me to say now though but at least I am hopeful that it wouldn't turn out bad.

All I want is just a simple wedding that looks good and at the end of the day, I'm happily married to my husband-to-be and I'm debt free. So I wouldn't advise anyone to do personal loans for their wedding. If you can't afford it, don't make it big. Simple one is good enough. Wedding is just between you and your spouse. Wedding ceremony is just an announcement that you're married and introduction to friends and relatives.

Just in case anyone is interested, we've also write up our journal on some guidelines for the wedding. It's written by both Jon and I (I wrote most of the time though. Pfft)

2 years soon...

This is the month that reminds me of what I've lost 2 years ago. 

Despite the reality of what had happened, subconsciously my mind has not learn to accept the fact yet during the first few months. Many times while my brother had lucid dream about her, I dream of her returning as another person. Someone I know, but she doesn't know who she was nor she remembers who we are. Is this a sign?  Funny how in my dream, I know that I had such memory before. 

Ever since my brother told us that he had one last dream about her and in that dream she told him that she will leave and be happy in another world, I too, did not have any more such dream about her.

I hope I can dream about her again. I still miss her very much but I cant look at her photo or talk about her without getting all teary. I guess I havent move on. I wish I could.

Happy birthday, mom... :)

Fickle weather

It has been quite a sunny day now in Malaysia and it's the summer season (it's not like we have four seasons here anyway). It has been sunny in the noon, cold at night and repeat. 

Being known as cactus among my friends, well because I hardly drink water, this cactus has been drinking loads of them lately. I'm not even working outdoor. It's good improvement anyway. I've drank almost 5x the amount that my Starbucks tumbler can fill. If I were to fill them up with cans and cans of coke I would be a happy kid now. *Que angel harmonizing* 

That's it for the short announcement of my little achievement. You have just wasted 2minutes of your time reading this crap that's probably does not have anything to relate with your life. But thank you anyway. If you read, that is. 

I need to get good rest!!

It almost happen again just now. Probably I didn't get enough sleep. 

I hope sleeping would be the cure. No. It should. Yeap! I only need to get enough sleep. Let's try. 

It's finally the week!

Random posting because I have to find a way to channel my excitement!! 

4more days to go till the fair I've been waiting for!! 

Finally my turn to scout for things in fairs (usually I'll avoid since it'll be a lot of people (人山人海) and expected to walk like zombies)

Hopefully I'll be able to find what we want there! 

Toodles!

EXCITED

Have I mentioned that I've found a new job? Well, if I haven't, I FOUND A NEW JOB! 

My new job commenced last month. So far so good. Time is flexible. Best thing is, I'm working near the mall! I can go for shopping after work. Lunch and dinner is not a problem now. I'm spoilt for choice! Got a huge monitor screen for my work and a laptop. 

Anyway, these aren't the thing that I'm excited about right now. 10 more days!! 10 more days to the KL-PJ wedding expo ! I can't wait to attend and hunt for our wedding necessities! So much more to do after engagement. 

Ahh.. I'm still in my cloud nine now. 

Smiling every now and then thinking about my fiancé. ^^ I love you. 

I'm ENGAGED!!!

It was totally a surprise! While I was having a thought that this would just be a vacation that I longed for, Jon actually has something up his sleeves!

He made plans with our friends who are travelling to Japan together. 

That day we rented a Kimono for photo shoot. I really thought it was just for experience sake. They told me they got a kimono for rental while we were at the shrine in Asakusa and that it's only rented for 90minutes and the three girls would take turns to wear it! 

So I thought it was so. I got changed and believe me, I was wraped up like dumpling with that many layers. But it was pretty 

We made our way to Sumida river where there was a park and the sakura trees are really pretty! It was a far distance and along the way, there were people taking photos with us. "Sumimasen...". I don't know how to response but just smile and take photo with them pretending like I was a Japanese. 

Then we reached to the park where the gang said want to take selfie with the tripod they bought and they set up

the cam.

Slowly, Jon started singing random lyrics where I realized it wad FT Island's Marry me!. I sudden realize what it was already and our friends were actually doing recording. 

I bursted out in tears. The moment was just what I had in mind! Together with friends, my darling proposed. Our friends held up the "Will U Marry Me?" cardboard . I nodded and said yes the moment he took out the ring. I was so touched. 

We then made a few photoshots around the area with our kimonos and how clueless I still was, worrying that I had to get back to the kimono rental place to have my friend changed. 

Back in the shot later, the shop owner helped us to take a shot before we change out of the kimono. 

So now, I'm officially ENGAGED!! ^^ 

Thanks, fiancé for the awesome surprise in JAPAN! Thanks to all our friends who helped to make his plan success! ^^ 

31.03.2015 is D-day! I love you, Jon. ^^

Thinking of you again..

I suddenly thought of what you've gone through when you were hospitalized. 

Trying your best to stay strong even though it's hurting inside. 

I still can't forget that look you had when you told me it's cold when you wore that oxygen mask. It is indeed put to the strongest because your oxygen level was low. I was so helpless looking at you and to have to leave you in that situation because visiting time was over. That was your very last words. Ever since, you were given anesthetic to rest your brain and... you never wake.

I remember there were one time, it was my turn to take care of you thoughout the night. I cried quietly. You were having difficulty to pass motion. I couldn't help at all. It was so difficult for you to sleep.Your mind wasn't resting. I just feel so hopeless. The next morning, not sure why, you suddenly shiver strongly. Nurses gave you double blanket, but you still feel cold. I wish at that moment I could understand how to make you feel better. 

There was once when you were able to discharge and were back home. I stayed with you at the living room because you have difficulty to go upstairs and I wanted to take care of you. That night, you barely made it to pass motion. I cleaned up after that. You apologize to me because you said you given me hard time. Honestly, I don't feel it's hard time at all. I was glad I could be your help.

 It hurts me more that I don't know what to do to make you feel better and I don't understand how you really feel. I wished I could exchange with you. Take your place instead. So you don't have to go through the pain. It hurts me that you apologize to me. I'm not even close to what you have done for me. 

If only you can still hear me now, I want to express my love and gratitude to you. I want to ask for your forgiveness for the times I did not listen to you. I'm sorry mom and I love you so much.

Nervous

I'm still having this backache off and on. I thought I was already getting better because at times I really don't feel it! Now it starting to get hurt on my thighs. It feels as though i pulled my hamstring. I need to rest more. 

I've tried sitting up straight don't hunch but the more I tried, my back got stiffer. 

I hope it gets better before the long awaited holiday.. 

I think I'm growing tail.

An unexplained ache on my lower spine. Not sure what had happened. As far as I know, I didnt lift anything heavy for the past 2 weeks. But yet, the pain has got more serious over the days.

It started off with mild pain that goes off and on. It can easily ease off just by resting. 

Now, I can feel it even more frequent. I can identify the whereabouts of the pain. It is at the lower back. Sometimes it hurts way down to my thighs. Lately that is. It hurts when I'm about to sit down, stand up after sitting down for some time, walking, going up stairs, getting off from car, laughing too hard, repositioning myself, about to lie down, and all that requires movement. 

I have seen doctor. He said it is nothing alarming at the moment. He gave me a muscle reliever tablet. I hope it would be gone when I leave for my vacation. Nothing is bad than having discomfort during a long awaited trip. 

I guess the massage from my dear Jon does help a bit in addition to the heat plaster I had put on. Thanks, love ^^

18032015 marks the day

So it's finally the say of my last day at work. I admit I was quite a bit of a workaholic. Although I was out with the girls after work, somehow throughout the night, I feel as though I have something on the next day. 

Today was awesome. 

I feel so much love from my colleagues! Many turned up on my last lunch also known as my farewell lunch. Although I may not have spoke to some of them much during my employment here, I really appreciate them for attending the lunch. It meant something to me. 

Gotta thank my manager for coordinating the farewell lunch. He made the booking at the restaurant beforehand to ensure it can accomodate all 16 of us. It was a big group!

        

During the lunch, Priya, our senior QA mentioned that I was always so joyful and she always see me smiling. It seems as though I have no stress. Haha. Little did she know how I look like when I'm back to my workstation. I've heard comments from my" neighbour" at my workstation that I have always been scrunching my eyebrows when I was working. I does that unknowingly. 

Thanks guys for the treat!

This was the best photos I got that have almost everyone in. From the front left, David, KK, dai lou, me, YC, Sabrina, Priya. From the front right, HJ, CK, Firdaus, Adibah, Edwin, NK, Najmi and. Azri. 

I should have brought the monopod along. Hehe. 

Also, thanks dai lou for the coffee treat! 

         

Back in office, I waited to have a photo with kakak before she left for home. 

   

I wouldn't forget her as she has been more than just a coffee lady to me. She is the closest to me in the office. We shared  gossips and some of our personal matters. She was literally kakak (elder sister) to me as she advises me a lot and gave me an indirect strength at times to work. As expected, she was affected a lot from the news that I have resigned. She kept her promise that she would cook for me on my last day. 

       

She made me nasi lemak with this chilli chicken. 

YUMM!!

I continued to backup my files and waited for teabreak. My last teabreak in the company. I was happy that it was a full attendance of my usual teabreak kaki. 

We played with the monopod. 

With tiny Firdaus, Najmi and Azri at the background.

Then comes the grand finale where we gathered at the receptionist for a group photo. 

The group photo wasn't the end! After that I was surprised by a sweet gift card by them! 

Hand over by the rep, YC. HAHAHA. It looks like I'm receiving some kind of award. They just have to make it look so formal. 

       

It's a card signed by them! 😭

---the photo is upside down---

I'm so touched! Since when they did this? Whose idea is this? It was awesomely-wonderful-touching-yet-sweet to receive this gift. THANK YOU GUYS! You guys made me have a "heavy heart" to leave Syn. It was great knowing all of you. 

We took some selfies..

What's with HJ's face anyway! hahaha. 

Thank you all for the company through my first phase of my career life. You guys were not only colleagues to me, but as a friend as well. I hope we do keep in touch!