Surviving without smartphone: Day 0.75

Got my phone back from Jon today.
Finally.
Reading all the spams that I missed since Friday night.

It's really difficult for people to contact me without my phone (thanks, captain obvious)
Jon has to pass the message through my dad to me if I'm not on skype.

To cut long story short, it has been trouble since my phone wasn't with me. So happens I have appointments this weekend so my phone has been bombarded with text messages and missed calls.

Thanks dear for taking care of my phone and relaying the message for me.
Sorry for the trouble.
Love you ^^

Surviving without smartphone : Day 1

What? Surviving without my smartphone? NYUUUUU!!!!
Just kidding.

This is the first day (or night, since I'm writing this at night) of me, living without my smartphone.
But why would I do that?
It's not intentionally. I left my phone at Jon's house after having dinner at his place.
Left it charging there. =(
I only noticed it when I got back home and I'm too sleepy to drive all the way to Jon's place again.

So I took up a little challenge with myself to survive without my smartphone for a day.

It wasn't such a tough day.

I've been busy the whole day anyway.
Started my morning with a favour from my brother, then run some errands and chores and some personal appointment.
Ding dong here and there then after dinner, here I am, sitting in front of my laptop writing how I survived the day without my smartphone.

Seems simple? It is actually quite simple.
All I need to do is just fill my time with some other things that I don't have to do with my smartphone.
I actually spend more time talking with my dad than just staring at my phone being obsessed with Candy Crush or 9gag or even manga.

Sorry ifI didn't reply any calls or messages though. I'll get my phone back after I'm done with another appointment tomorrow =D

New banner?

Yeah, just a random banner I created using Gimp.
Still prefers Photoshop over Gimp though.
But since I don't have the license.. so.. pretty much just a simple one.

"Why change then?" 
Just because, I'm bored.

The reason..

I feel envious when I saw friends' posts appearing on my timeline when they got back from their holiday. I wanted to go too.

I honestly feels like we should travel while we're still able to. But there are many factors holding me back.

Top reason why I'm so reluctant to go on long holiday or hangouts is because I'll have to leave my family behind. Especially nowadays, my dad. Since mom has passed away, I feel like I have a bigger responsibility to accompany him at home. "Why don't you leave it to your brothers?". You don't understand. I have two brothers. "Then it'll be even better? There's two even!". No, you still don't understand. One of them have communication problem with my dad. They'll end up quarreling in a matter of time. Another is working outstation. The only one who spends most time with my dad, is me.

Sometimes, I feel guilty when I have to leave dad to eat alone for dinner. Especially on weekends when everyone has their own plans and dad stays at home.

Another reason is $$. I'm saving up for the future. Just in case anything happened, at least I have some cash for backup. I kinda learned that after mom's passing.

Friends will be like, "hey, you never hangout with us anymore." I'm really sorry. I just couldn't go against my conscience. But there will be some of the time that I'll take a break from this. Dad needs to have his own time too :) . I wish you guys could understand. I know I've been such a trouble to be included in your travel plans, I sincerely apologize for that.

I do admit that there's drastic changes in my life now. I'm slowly coping with it.

There are many things now in my hand that my dad just threw to me to train me handling the "adult world". Dealing with legal people and authorities. Yeap, this is his way of welcoming me to the adult life. Though I'm quite clear on why he doesn't throw them to my brothers, I still whine from time to time. "I should act as my role being the youngest one and couldn't care less about the family and be spoiled". Stereotypically. But actually, I'm glad that I'm being trained this way. Now I got to learn from my dad while I can. I got to learn things that even my brothers doesn't know =D

Yes, this is MY blog.