New year's wish

Since I din get what I want for Christmas..

"All I want for Christmas is you"

Shall I make that as my new year's wish?

I need miracle ..

History : Day 2

Been hiatus from posting from my lappy for quite some time due to..
VIRUS!

but today, I've decided to take my chances and tried to online again through my lappy!
OH BOY! I MISS THE FEELING OF TYPING LONG SENTENCES ON MY LAPPY SOOOO MUCH!
and I meant sentences that everyone could understand!!

// been typing much of programming codes.. and that doesn't count as sentence!!

Ok, so Advanced SE paper might be confusing for me.. I think I didn't do well..
But hey, it's the past now.
saying so, I have no mood to continue reading my materials for Ethics for the paper is tomorrow..
seriously.. i'm unethical. pfft.

But then again.. this 2 credit hours might helped me ALOT!! 

I shouldn't screw it up.

blames UNITEN for having poor exam timing. sheesh..
It's NEW YEAR'S EVE! and i'm stuck having exam..
and I'm gonna stuck in traffic trying to go back home tomorrow! WTH!
and why do I feel so wronged?
'CAUSE I DON'T EVEN PLAN TO GO FOR COUNTDOWN!
and I have to stuck in the jam. boohoo me..

Nevertheless, I just gotta go back~
Homemade steamboat is waiting for me!
yumm yumm!!
Eventhough there is a guilty pleasure for eating so much.
But I just misses this experience!

Ok, i'm just spamming here cz ethics is driving my brain nuts.
I don't wish to continue studying anymore.. ):

this is bad..

ok, bye!

HISTORY : DAY 1

Software testing exam just passed.
I sure am glad that the paper has ended early.

I wad pretty happy towards the end of the exam.
Not to say that I did well..
Im just glad that one burden was lifted off my shoulder.
3 more to go..

The next paper is .. well.. technically.. today .
I AM NERVOUS.
Honest.
I've been reading. But nothing has entered my brain.
even if it entered, it is not crafted to my brain!
I just cant remember.

Im even sleepy now.
And i got whole half chapters more to go out of this subject.

How should i look forward to this paper?
after i screwed my first paper. How many more should i waste?
this is sad.

Ahh... the mood is still nt here yet!
doomed.

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Just you wait

Finals are finally here tomorrow!!
as much as im anticipating it cz it's the final academic year for me, im reluctant to actually accepting it.

The final exam this year was held on end of the month of December..
Which is of course, the holiday mood is getting in the way.
It pretty much sounds like im giving myself an excuse to not study as hard..
but that's really the main fact!
Who wants to study on holiday season?
Christmas week and then new year's week. To put it a simple picture, you'l have to study on the day on a festive day!! How sad was that.
While people are enjoying their holiday vacation, out stations, you're actually stuck at home facing the book.. and i dont mean the Facebook.

It's suck that my lappy got virus and I have yet to heal it. Poor lappy. I dont have that much time to actually bring it to the doctor when i have my fyp and thesis and finals going on this rushing month.
Lappy, you just got sick in the wrong time.

Look at my blog you'll get to know how long have I been less active on the internet.
It's really sad that i could not even blog about what fun event i'v been through out this busy month.

The 2pm concert, the outing, the winter solistice festival home-made version.. and my kpop addiction spazz.. ohh... how long have i stopped blogging?

I hope to get back my blogging life as soon as possible. ):
Intern would be the next big thing im looking forward to! (:

Hopefully to be active in this blog again!

Gotta sleep.
Wish me luck in my finals starting today!!
OH GOSH!! IT'S TODAY ALREADY????
NOOOOOOO!!!!

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하늘 .

It was about 7pm when we've decided to leave COIT to library to meet up with ah boy..
The moment we reached the carpark, I was captivated by this beauty of nature.

Immediately, I pulled out my phone to capture this beautiful scene.
It was really amazing to see the sunset this way..(:

Too bad I din have my camera with me.
I would stand for hours there trying to get every single moment of it! <3

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I've got you!

It was love at first sight.

The very moment I saw you..
I wanted to have you..
But you played hard to get.
You have seriously challenged my pride.
I just gotta have you.

I can't stop thinking about you..
Day and night.
You are what I twit.
You are what I blogged.
You are what I looked forward to when I visit the same place again.
You are always in my mind.
What I talked about.

I just can't stand it.
I just gotta have you!!
and..

I've finally have you.. (:

my new sling bag! <3





even if it costs my breakfast,lunch and dinner for the rest of the week, I'm still glad to have you with me (:

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day 2 and home

day 2 in penang was basically the main event.
The wedding dinner.

Anyhow,that morning,
aunt invited us to have breakfast together at the dim sum restaurant in georgetown.
that place was indeed crowded..

but the food isnt as good as i've expected.

moving on... so that afternoon, after dropping my cuzzy back to her apartment, we went visiting around penang.
the initial idea was the kek lok si temple.
but there was massive jam there..
we cant even stop by at air itam to have the famous asam laksa!
thats a pity.

so then we stopped by at a restaurant where it is said that the char kuey teow is delicious!
to our surprise we have to wait for 45 minutes before getting our orders done!
anyhow, since they said it is nice, we waited.
it took us 35 minutes and our kuey teow has finally arrived!

sadly, it wasnt as good as expected. only the prawns are big. the price is not worth at all!! RM7.50 !
you're paying just for the sake of big prawns!

sad.. sad..


so that evening we prepared

and head out for my cousin's wedding dinner at the restaurant in penang plaza.
awww.. my cousin is finally getting married!!
she looked so preeeetttyyyy!!!!! (:
when will it be my bro's turn? haha..

the next day we head over to the town once again to buy our stuffs and head off to ipoh after bidding farewell to our relatives (:

at ipoh, we stayed at syuen hotel!

had the chance to taste the ipoh chicken rice,
shopped around at ipoh parade..
and back to hotel.

the next day, we tried the nearby dim sum..
i fgt the name.. china something....but the custard bun is yummy!!!
lau sar bao is the name of the bun.
then we shopped around to buy the salted chicken and the mini kaya puff..

checked out and we head home!
yes, I DROVE!
apparently mom didn't disagree much when dad stopped by at the tapah r&r and we changed driver.
so i drove all the way home (:

it was fun driving manual car.. but i'd still prefer auto eventho it isnt a powerfull as manual.
im still nt good enough driving at slopes. pehh..


wow! it's almost 2!!
gotta sleep.. (:
nites!

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Penang day 1

so today i head back to penang for cousin's wedding ceremony.
let me just highlight a bit..
I DROVE BACK TO PENANG.
ok.. itwas just half trip.. but..
MY FIRST TIME. DRIVING THROUGH THE PENANG BRIDGE!!!

then upon reaching aunt's place where the frens and relatives are gathered, I was kinda.. overwhelmed.
by the amountof peope that were there.. I've never been to such even before.. and i was shocked.
and wow! the.. zi mui .. they're all dressed up so well!
i'd look for my corner.

then after the arrival of the groom,
they have so many games to play before the groom could actually get to see the bride!
of course.. it aint easy to pass the zi mui..

after the games, there's the tea ceremony where the newly weds would have to serve tea to the elders as a sign of blessing from the elders.

after the bride left with the groom,
we head back to our apartments to check in too.. and i took a shirt nap.

then we went for dinner hawker style at jelutong market.
oh wow!! food paradise!
we had fried kuey teow, fried oyster, fried kuey kak, and curry laksa. (:

YuMMeH!
thats the day one. (:
hope to eat more tmr..


a little camwhore wont hurt. :P

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A day trip

It was such a "full" trip on last friday.
We went to Malacca!!

it was a long postponed trip, bt we have finally went there with aboy's mpv!!
it took us less than 2 hours to reach malacca.

first thing when we reach there...LUNCH!
We're starving...
and my late arrival has even made their hungerness.increased.. haha...
sorry guys..

then we arrived at one of the chicken rice ball
then we went for another lunch at kenny's delight!

THE FOOD WAS AWESOME.
i love the nyonya food there...the ayam ponteh..
if that's how they spell it.
then the eggplant..

then after that,we went to nadeje for some.dessert and then to shopping around!
i was excited to be at malacca.. it has been a while.since our last trip tgt like this!

then we head on to satay celup
where i got my new experience on getting my bag ALMOST snatched.

lucky thing nothing lost.
that guy was trying to snatch my camera bag while on his bike.
somehow he din get anything.
else he would hav got my wallet n car key!
i was shocked. of course.
but i was more to relieved cz nothing lost.
no serious injury. just minor bruise on my arm.
thanks guys for your concern (:

then we went for jonker walk!
the idea of shopping around seems fun..
but then i bought nothing! despite the cheap bargains.

we then head over to portuguese settlement for the ikan bakar.. however, their style of cooking the fish is different.
theirs is baked in aluminium foil, topped with spices OMG! IT WAS.AWESOMELY FANTASTIC ..
i totally recommend u guys to try stall 10 from auntie Julie.
Her baked fish was different. it has such aroma that made u wanna finish the whole fish alone!
to make u forget that "sharing is caring"
also, her lala was superb! compared to the first stall we tried. also her butter garlic scallop.

YUMMEH!!
price was cheaper too!

after that, we head back to uni and our respective homes with tummy full with malacca delights. (:
the trip back was interesting too!!
*wink* we're hyped up after such great food that day.

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KAT's BIRTHDAY!

to start off, yesterday was indeed a fun day.
Classes are shorter,
got back home, excited.
It was Kat's birthday and we had prepared an event!

So after Jia Yi got back home,
prepared, we went out to Melaka!
and of course, Weiting and Shirley went off earlier to prepare everything.

Going to Melaka was my drive!
Guided by Linda,
and accompanied by Kpop all the way was indeed an adventure!

All the way I was driving 120-150 km/h
HAHA! My first time driving that fast.

and I was driving the #familyCar !!
And pehh.. it was raining -.-"

I still drove 130 - 140.
DAMN SYOK!
it was such an adventure drive (:

then reached Malacca at about 7pm+
head over to fetch the two housemates #calmWeiting and #mongShirley,
and off we go to a western restaurant nearby named, Harper's

the food was not bad.
had red wine,
Initially I dislike the taste.
It was bitter. but after sometime..
It was ok.. TBH, I kinda addicted to it O_O

We had our food, laughed, and CAKE!

after the celebration,
Kat keep talking nonstop. LOL!

we think she got tipsy.. ._."

then we head over to WT's place..
calming themselves down,

then we head back home when it's about 11.30,
reached kajang at almost 1am,
reached my home at 130am! (:

YAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHRINA!! (:

can't upload photos.. I wonder why..

Bittersweet Indeed !

To start off, I had an insurance test today.
A test my bro asked me to take so that I could become one of his agent.

or so.. @@"

To begin with,
I didn't study much.
I studied last week, pretty much LAAAAAST minute.
Just to have bro told me that it was this week, not last week.
So I stopped there.
Stopped the studying.
Only until this morning did I start revising again.

Went to the exam room,
and answered the 100qs,
well, MCQ at least.
but yeah. I failed. =.="

Miracles couldn't happen just like that, right?

at least it wasn't that bad of a failure.
it was within 10% below the passing mark.
For first timer, i'm kinda proud. (:
Bear in mind that I didn't study much and this wasn't my field of study :P
*consoling myself*

I lost the sushi bet.
=.="

Then I had my haircut.
No, not that I'm emo.
I'm just .. bored with the current hairstyle that I'm having.

Later that evening,
Aboy asked me to help him with his posters designing.
He had 10 posters to finished up.
Thinking that I could help him, and it's Photoshop,
I went to The Gardens to meet him.

ok, here's the fun part.
As I was waiting by the side for this car to come out,
there was another Kelisa waiting for the parking too!
RAWR!
Then when I was reversing my car to park,
I saw that the driver looked rather familiar!

AND THAT WAS LAW EDDREN!
I'M SO SHOCKED!
then he actually found another parking at the row behind my car.
LOL!

We both laughed as we enter the mall.
It was a funny and awkward coincidence.

Then we had Korean meal again!
wow. 2 days in a row!
I had my eyes on ddeokbokki!



it's yummeh!!
but then it was spicy for me!
but it's bearable! (:

Thanks Aboy!! (:

then we went to Starbucks to start our mission..
the POSTERS!
sat there for almost 3 hours++ just to finished up 10 posters!
and the Starbucks was warm!
There's no aircond T_T

Anyhow, we managed to finish them (:

Back home,
bro and gf got me a watch!!!!!
A WATCH THAT I WAS LOOKING FOR!
LONGING TO BUY ONE!

kyaaa!!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!



Love you all deep deep la! (:
♥

thank you!!

Wow.. new housemate boiled barley for us!!
Really grateful to everyone who took good care of me when I'm sick. 고마워요!! ありがと みなさん!! 谢谢!!

How could I ever express my appreciation to u guys!!

Kyaaa!! Seriously. Love you all deep deep la!
And not to forget,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY NEW HOUSEMATE, CK LAU!!

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First Time..

It was yesterday morning..
I woke up before my alarm rings just because I felt the discomfort in my stomach.
I tried to endure it, waiting for my alarm to ring, I was tired.
But I just couldn't stand it.
Once I reach the bathroom, I immediately vomited.

It was strange, not knowing what had happened, and I just threw up.
thinking that maybe it was indigestion, so once I threw up, I would feel better.

So I got myself readied, bath and prepared to leave for college.
but then again, that nausea feeling is back. I threw up again.

Bro was at home, worried about my condition, he offered to bring me to clinic.
But he was late for work, and I wouldn't wanna bother him.
In addition, I HATE seeing doctor =.="
so I passed the offer.

I had the thought of skipping class, but then again, my conscience told me not to. 0=)
So I grabbed on my car key and left the house.
On my way to college, yes, you've guessed it.
I threw up again. It was embarrassing to throw up at public area.
But I just couldn't stand it.
That very moment, I wished I have a puke bag with me.
or perhaps a plastic bag would be fine. -.-"

I can't imagine how miserable it felt to drive in such condition,
and I don't know what drives me so far to not skipping class.

Reached uni just in time for class, that is 10am.
Again, I vomited before I enter the class.
Immediately after that, I bought an apple juice from the COIT vending machine
because the aftertaste of vomiting is intolerable . sigh
and by drinking that, it actually could stop my nausea feeling. (:
so in class, I kept drinking it whenever I feel nausea.
Glad to hear from my friend that the class would only last for an hour since the lecturer has to leave for hospital.
Not that I glad that he has to go, I'm glad that I could go freely to the toilet whenever I feel like puking.

The whole moment in class I couldn't really focus much.
It was cold.
I had Blinkie to confirm that I was having slight fever.
=.="
so much for throwing up too much?

during class, I got message from Aboy to meet him at lvl 3 COIT.
so I went after my class, I was feeling a bit better that time, I bet I was..

seeing Aboy in such cheerful mood does made me feel better. LOL.
I wonder why he's always so cheerful, I should learn from him (:
But anyhow, I'm always happy getting to meet my friends.
They brought me happiness.. yeah ((: HONEST!

Somehow, during then, I went back and forth to toilet just to throw up -.-"
and the toilet was darn FARRRR!!!
oh well, skip the disgusting part about me puking,
after taking picture with the GRADUATE, Aboy,
Chua, Tony and Johnson insisted that I go to dispensary to get medicine.
which I refused at first. I wonder why, perhaps I don't really trust medicine?

Anyhow, I ended up going with them to the dispensary in UNITEN
and Johnson manage to get me a few medicine for my nauseousness, fever and gastric.
After they drop me back to COIT car park, I got back to my car,
and there I go again, vomiting ..
lucky there's and open drain just right in front of my car parked. (:
needless to say, what I ate yesterday and drank this morning is all out..
such a waste of food.

Back home, I slept immediately. =.="
woke up an hour later just to have milo and ate a piece of chiffon cake so that I could eat the medicine that johnson got me.
Fair enough, I went back to sleep again before I puke again.
Not long later, feeling warm under my blanket, I woke up.
rushed to the bathroom, and yes, vomit again.
tried to sleep back, a moment later, housemates got back
and we talked, and I guess i fell asleep again?

Weird enough last night, I don't feel hungry at all,
perhaps I got no appetite to eat also.
then housemates went out for dinner ..
and I was left alone at home.

I tried to get some sleep before the meeting, but I ended up throwing up instead.
The milo I had was threw up. LOL.
perhaps the medicine too. cz it was bitter. HAHAHA!

Soon after, housemates got back, brought me the "air cap badak"
a traditional cooling water to cool down the body from being heaty.
then one of my housemate did "gua sar" for me!
MY VERY FIRST TIME EXPERIENCING IT!
it's ticklish, but soon after, it's painful
*the after effect is painful.. like bruised, but yes, I kinda like to press on the bruises*

#taimawillis took the photo for me!

that was just the beginning before #mongshirley suggested that I should do a full body "gua sar"
because she saw my condition was kinda bad.
Mine turned purplish black! from that, she said that it's kinda serious. O_O"
ok, so I had a full body "gua sar" ticklish whole over my body when she was scratching my back with the spoon.
haha..

then seems like it's not enough because even after that, I felt discomfort around my stomach.
The nausea feeling is there too..
So they suggested to roll the hard boiled egg around my body. O_O"
another new experience to me. I didn't know egg could do such a thing.

After rolling it onto my body,
the egg yolk does turned black. O_O CREEPY MUCHH!!!
but the smell of the egg yolk was stinky then after!

Yesterday was surely a day of lazing around.
Can't move much, can't eat much.
even can't walk straight! HAHA!
I almost bang on the wall while trying to get my wallet from the study table.


All in all, I guessed I threw up more than 10 times!

ok done!
such a long post today! (:
gotta thank my housemates and friends for their help!
THANK YOU GUYS!!

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insomnia

having insombia lately.
can't seem to fall asleep just like that.
even with such nice weather.. how tired i was.. i just can't seem to fall asleep easily.
tiny bit of sound could even woke me up.. and there again..
it's difficult for me to fall asleep again.

today seems to be worse.
rather than having endless thoughts that disrupt my sleeping time, these thoughts seems to be tangled up.
I cant seem to know what am i thinking. at all. but definitely.. the mind is restless.
Its like the inner me trying to talk. monologue. but there's just too many of it at once.
i dont even know where it starts.

or rather what made me felt this way.

i can't seem to focus much on my work.
i just ended up swaying.
staring at walls. and i have no idea what i have in mind.

what had happened lately?
why am i having this feeling?

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JYJ - In Heaven

JYJ - In Heaven Lyrics

Romanized

(Narration)
geuman galke..gajima..gottoraol geoya geureonikka
geojitmal, geojitmal
aniya, naega neol imankkeum saranghaneunde
geu sarang, jigeum boyeojul sun obgetni?
saranghae.. ttodasi saranghal sun obgetni

jigeum waseon malhal suga obseo
naui gijeok geumodeun ge hwansang gatta
majimak ni moseub sok seoseohi gieok sogeman
jamgyeojyeo ganeun gotman gatta

eodingaeseo nal bogo isseulkka
huhui haedo neucheobeoryeo bolsu obseo
chueogui geurimjaui chokchokhan nae nunmul dullo
geu jaril jikyeobogo isseo

geuman mothae jeongmal mothae niga nae yeophe isseulttae mankkeum
mianhande geuge andwae ijen modeun ge ttolryeowa
jogeumdo gidarida kkumsokeul hemeida (hemeida)
gyeolguk ni aneseo nuneul gameulkkabwa

gajima deo gajima nae gyeotte isseojul suneun obtni
geojitmal da geojitmal jeonhyeo dullijiga anha
saranghae neol saranghae hanmadi boyeojul suneun obtni
saranghae neol saranghae tto dashi saranghae jugetni

beolsseo ireohke do jina wasseo
naui heunjeok chatjabwado jiwo jyeosseo
majimak ni gieokdo nunmurui tteyeop sogeuro
jamgyeojyeo ganeun gotman gatta

iman kkeutnae nareul kkeutnae niga nae yeophe itji andamyeon
mianhande iman galke ije neoui gireul ttara
kkeut obtneun gireul ttara neol chaja hemeida (hemeida)
gyeoguk neoreul itgoseo seulpheoman halkkabwa

gajima deo gajima nae gyeotte isseojul suneun obtni
geojitmal da geojitmal jeonhyeo dullijiga anha
saranghae neol saranghae hanmadi boyeojul suneun obtni
saranghae neol saranghae tto dashi saranghae jugetni

gajima gajima isseojul suneun itni
geojitmal geojitmal deulijiga anha
saranghae saranghae boyeojul suneun itni
saranghae saranghae saranghae jugetni
gajima gajima isseojul suneun itni
geojitmal geojitmal deulijiga anha
saranghae saranghae boyeojul suneun itni
jebal dorawajyeo

gajima deo gajima nae gyeotte isseojul suneun obtni
geojitmal da geojitmal jeonhyeo dullijiga anha
saranghae neol saranghae hanmadi boyeojul suneun obtni
saranghae neol saranghae tto dashi saranghae jugetni

항을

(Narration)
그만 갈게 / 가지마 / 곧 돌아올 거야 그
러니까… / 거짓말, 거짓말 / 아니야 내가
널 이만큼 사랑하는데… / 그 사랑 지금
보여줄 순 없겠니? / 사랑해… / 또 다시
사랑할 순 없겠니…

지금 와선 말할 수가 없어 너의 기적 그
모든 게 환상 같아 / 마지막 니 모습 속 서서히 기억
속에만 잠겨져 가는 것만 같아

어딘가에서 날 보고 있을까 후회해도 늦어버려 볼
수 없어 / 추억의 그림자의 촉촉한 내 눈물들로 그
자릴 지켜보고 있어

그 말 못해 정말 못해 니가 내 옆에 있을 때만큼 /
미안한데 그게 안돼 이젠 모든 게 떨려와

조금 더 기다리다 꿈속을 헤 메이다 / 결국 니 안에
서 눈을 감을까 봐

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니 / 거짓
말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 / 사랑
해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

벌써 이렇게도 지나 왔어 너의 흔적 찾아봐도 지워
졌어 / 마지막 니 기억도 눈물의 테옆 속으로 잠겨
져 가는 것만 같아

이만 끝내 나를 끝내 니가 내 옆에 있지 않다면 / 미
안한데 이만 갈게 이제 너의 길을 따라 / 끝 없는 길
을 따라.. 널 찾아 헤 메이다~ / 결국 너를 잃고서 슬
퍼만 할까 봐

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어 줄 수는 없니 / 거짓
말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 / 사랑
해 널 사랑해 또다시 사랑해 주겠니

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니 / 거짓말 거짓말
들리지가 않아

사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니 / 사랑해 사랑해
사랑해 주겠니

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니 / 거짓말 거짓말
들리지가 않아

사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니 / 제발 돌아와줘

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니 / 거짓
말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 / 사랑
해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

Translation

I’m going to leave now
Don’t leave
I’m going to come back so…
Liar, liar
No- don’t you know how much I love you?
Can’t you show that love to me right now?
I love you…
Can’t we love again?

As of right now, I can’t say anything
The miracle of you- it all seems like a fantasy
The last image of you seems to be locked only in my memories
I wonder if you are watching me from somewhere
Even if I regret, it’s too late- I can’t see you anymore
The tears of the shadows of my memories are watching over that place

I can’t say those words, I really can’t- as much as you were by my side
I’m sorry but I can’t- everything comes shaking back to me now
By waiting a little more, by wandering through my dreams
I’m afraid I will close my eyes inside of you

* Don’t leave, don’t leave- can’t you stay by my side?
Lies, all lies- I don’t hear anything
I love you, I love you- can’t you show me those words?
I love you, I love you- will you love me again?

Time already passed like this
I try looking for your traces but they are erased
The last memories of you are locked in the rims of my tears

Just end it, end me- if you’re not going to be next to me
I’m sorry but I’ll leave now- following your footsteps
Following the road with no end- as I wander to find you
I’m afraid I will lose you and be sad

* repeat

Don’t leave, don’t leave- can’t you stay?
Lies, lies, I don’t hear anything
I love you, I love you- can’t you show me?
Can’t you love me, love me, love me?
Don’t leave, don’t leave- can’t you stay?
Lies, lies, I don’t hear anything
I love you, I love you- can’t you show me?
Please come back

* repeat

Credit: pop!gasa + romanization@wp + Daum.net + pinkrazy@wp

Will you?

cant sleep due to teh tarik effect.

sudden flashbacks are playing randomly in my mind now.
all of a sudden guilt overwhelmed me.
What went wrong?
Why does all of these happen?

Was it fated or was it a karma?
Which would I rather believe in?


It wasn't her intention for this to happen..
Though she wasn't completely healthy the last time
she was still able to do what she wanted.

Why.. Why are you taking one thing after another from her?
Is this a test?

When will this ever stop?


What else would you do to her?
Has it not enough?

Will wishes ever come true?
I would wish to have miracles to happen on her.
To have her have back her normal self.
To be free from all these bondings, burdens, pain.
Freely moving around.
Any how she wants.
Any way she wants.
To anywhere she likes.

Could You grant this one wish to come true?

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addicted

I'm dead! I'm dead!!

I'm so addicted to BEAST !! ><"

what should I do?? RAWR!
It's Yoseob's fault for charming me to BEAST obsession !

Save me!! T___T


now I can't wait for the next B2ST concert in Malaysia .__."


I thought I'm way pass this kpop fan craze stage since TVXQ!
ahh~~ It's like falling in love all over again!

clear things off..

clearing off the dust from my blog!

I hope to post more colourful things than emo things here... which is known as dead or dust, in my blog-term.

sweeping,dusting..putting up photo frames!
ahhhh~ life is wonderful again..

heck. who am I kidding?
I bet it gonna turn dusty in a moment soon..

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waiting

it's dad birthday today!!
i wonder how are we going to celebrate .. o_o

dad has been persistent this year
keep reminding us about his birthday.. lol.

anyway..
waiting here at the hospital kinda reminded me about dad..
he always waits with mom here for her medical appointment.
i wonder what he'll do all these moments of waiting..

i'd be left with boredom if i got nothing to play.
or perhaps. be nice and read the newspaper..
but that would be a miracle.
that's impossible. (:

luckily this time around i have something to accompany me.
but the battery is dying soon..
so am I... perhaps..

oh well..
ironically, it's a hospital here..
I giuess I'm saved..

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where are you?

Where have you gone?
Why didn't you stay by my side as always?
Why are you too.. leaving me..
all by myself with the dark side of you.

I've waited long enough for today..
for you to claim me back..
I've tried all my might to search you..
to feel your presence..
but you're not there..
I've tried doing many things..
but there is nothing that could replace you..

Why did you leave me in this state?
Why?
I need you back..
Please come back to me..

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finally!!

i've finally bought myself a smartphone after much hesitation.

tho i still have problem with the typing.. but ceetainly, no more.text messaging while driving nemore! also, no more text mesaging while looking elsewhere. ㅠ_ㅠ

that's the drawback. but all in all, i'm gkad to have this phone!

it has definitely made my life way better!

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My Sims Review

Suerin introduced me to play The Sims Social on Facebook lately.
Although I've been reluctant to play .. 'cause finals is just around the corner during that time..
but somehow I got pulled into the game with the spams in facebook and
somehow the one comment in the photo of the sims they snapshot got me flooded with comments about the game.

Then it's then.. that I decided.. I MUST PLAY TOO!
HAHAHA!!

To begin with, creating my own character is a problem.
I keep getting the reload error.


Even when I'm finally connected and creating my character,
whenever I tried to press the "Facial" from the customize character ,
I got the reload error again. and it didn't happen just once,
I bet it has happened about more than 15 times already!

And I just keep reload-ing. =.="

WTF is wrong with The Sims Social on Facebook?

and now, even after my character has been created,
I STILL GET THE DAMN ERROR!

why is that so?

#pissed

Late updates

My blog have been left dead and dusty for months.
Less color, less excitement.

My life isn't so... actually.. in real.

I've been to many outings and I'm just too lazy to update here on my blog.

another reason perhaps..
I was left "dead".
I'm pretty much back to life now! :D

But now, I'm just too lazy to caption each picture.
Let's just summarize it here.

Went out for an outing with Aboy, Johnson , Mai and Chua ..err.. early this month?
it's a buka puasa outing but we went around at pavilion for window shopping.

Planned schedule: Suki Yaki Buffet at the new Tokyo Street at Pavilion.


But first!!! Lunch at Farenheit88 :D
at some random Taiwan restaurant.
The food was not bad ^^






After satisfying our stomach, we went to Pavilion and soon, head over to Tokyo Street.

TWT: This is the commercial I was talking about!

My comment regarding this restaurant:
The meat is freeflow,
but the variety of side dishes is limited. VERY limited.
One ice cream per customer.

Service wise.. 3 out of 10.some random bakery at the tokyo street. and the bun is huge! :D

Just a week before , had pool and watched Mr. Popper's Penguin !

바보

The sheet of paper which I use to write my ERD are all wet now.
Eyes are all swollen and it's hurting me.

Wondering why did I make myself a fool?
I could have just spam it on my emo twitter account like how the name is.
iSpamRants . Spam it. But no, instead, I just have to trigger myself to this confrontation.

Even if I know how this would be, what could happen.
I still step into that deep puddle of toxic and burn myself.

Aren't I the biggest fool ever?

My Wall

I love to stick to walls.

No matter when I walk or when I sleep.

Or even when I stand.

Walls give me comfort., security and well, a good place to lean on.

To rely on.

They're hard, stable, solid, REAL. unlike you.

They support me without rejecting me.

They do not give feedback even if they're tired of me leaning on them.

If walls could be my partner, talking to them with own imagination would be great too.

People might think I'm mad talking to walls,

but at least they don't hurt me like how human do. unless I bang on them. That's just me looking for trouble.

Time will heal

Will it?

Will it really cure this scarred heart?

Soulless drive.

Something definitely feels wrong today..

My mask remained having a happy face, while beneath it tells a different story.
Those who were observant enough could see the crack there.
Everything I do, no matter how much I could enjoy the outing,
the conversation, the sports I had today.
It still doesn't seem to make me feel any better.
Something REALLY feels wrong.

After receiving that message during my ride home.
That same message that I hate to get.
I had another soulless drive.
I couldn't care much of my speed.
I do not think at all.
I don't care what's gonna happen to me.
Is this a sign of depression?

I thought I was happy all these while.
I thought I was ok with it..
I guess that remains as what I thought I could be.

But things still doesn't agree with me.
I hate to blame it on others for how I feel.
Because I choose to be like this.
I chose to feel the sorrow.
I chose to cry. I chose to think that way.

But now, I blame it on you.

Gray.

My favorite color which was black and white has now became part of my life.. ironically.

Now, that color has merged and became gray.
Bland. The color of ash.

If only I could be like the ash. Dear wind, blew me away.
Blew me high up to the sky, and throw me down.
I'm used to it even in this life.

Tell me something new.

Please help~

Please help me do this survey.
I'm currently working on a Restaurant Ordering System for my Final Year Project.

here's the link.

Click here to take survey


thank you so much for your help!

I Can't

I managed to catch Kim Jeung Eun Chocolate Concert today
and the guest for today's show is 2PM!
yes, I was waving my hands to the song they sing.
And if dad were not around, I would have jump around as I hear them singing and dance.

in this show, they also introduce their new song,
I Can't and they sang it the first time on stage!
aahh~~ so I went searched up for the song and here's the lyrics!
It's a really nice song that I would recommend you to listen to! ♥
and it's a slow song from them!!! *melts*

2PM - I Can't

Hangeul

그대 올 때까지 기다릴게 Cuz I can’t forget your love
눈물이 흐를 것 같아 그대 생각만 하면

갈수록 깊어만 가 I can’t stop thinkin’ about your love
잊을 수 없을 것 같아 그대 모든 걸
믿을 수 없을 것 같아 그대 돌아 온다면

I can’t forget your love
언제까지라도 난 그대 올 때까지 기다릴게
I can’t forget your love
언제까지라도 기다릴게
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

그대 생각에 잠 못드는 밤을 지새우다
흐를것 같은 눈물을 참지 못해 가끔 혼자 I cried

이 세상에 그대 밖에 없는 나였기에
그대를 잃고 내게 남은 것은 아무것도 없었어

So I can’t forget your love

I can’t forget your love
언제까지라도 난 그대 올 때까지 기다릴게
I can’t forget your love
언제까지라도 기다릴게
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

잊으려고 해 본적도 없어 내겐 가치 없는 일이라서
그댈 떠올리는 일이 매일 내게는 숨 쉬는 것 만큼 소중해
So I can’t forget your love
Do you know that I need your love
I need your everything I need you back
기다릴 수 있어 till you come back

Come back to me

I can’t forget your love (I can’t forget your love)
언제까지라도 난 그대 올 때까지 기다릴게
I can’t forget your love
언제까지라도 기다릴게
Cuz I can't (I can't) forget your love

I can’t forget your love (I can’t forget your love)
언제까지라도 난 그대 올 때까지 기다릴게
I can’t forget your love (I need your love)
언제까지라도 기다릴게
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I just wanna be with you
I just wanna be with you

(You know my heartbeat)


Romanization

Geudae ol ddaegaji gidaril ge Cuz I can’t forget your love
Nunmuli heureul geot gata geudae saenggakman hamyeon

Galsurok gipeomanga I can’t stop thinkin’ about your love
Ijeul su obseul geot gata heudae modeungeol
Mideul su eobseul geot gata geudae dola ondamyeon


I can’t forget your love
Eonjeggajirado nan geudae ol ddaeggaji gidarilge
I can’t forget your love
Eonjeggajirado gidarilge
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love
Geudae saenggake jam motdeunneun bameul jisaeuda
Heureulgeot gateun nunmuleul chamji mothae gaggeum hon-ja I cried

I sesange geudae bakke eobneun nayeotgie
Geudaereul ilgo naege nameun geoteun amugeotdo eobseosseo

So I can’t forget your love
I can’t forget your love
Eonjeggajirado nan geudae ol ddaeggaji gidarilge
I can’t forget your love
Eonjeggajirado gidarilge
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

[rap]
Ijeuryeogo hae bonjeokdo eobseo naegen gachi eobneun ilirase
Geudael ddeo olrineun ili maeil naegeneun sum shwineun geot mankeum sojunghae
So I can’t forget your love do you know that I need your love
I need your everything I need you back
Gidaril su isseo till you come back

Come back to me

I can’t forget your love (I can’t forget your love)
Eonjeggajirado nan geudae ol ddaeggaji gidarilge
I can’t forget your love
Eonjeggajirado gidarilge
Cuz I can’t (I can’t) forget your love

I can’t forget your love (I can’t forget your love)
Eonjeggajirado nan geudae ol ddaeggaji gidarilge
I can’t forget your love (I need your love)
Eonjeggajirado gidarilge

Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I just wanna be with you
I just wanna be with you

(You know my heartbeat)


Translation

I’ll wait you Cuz I can’t forget your love
I think the tears flow when thinking about you

Deepening toward the I can’t stop Thinkin about your love
Can’t seem to forget everything you
Can’t seem to believe that if you come back

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I sleep on the nights you
Sometimes I can’t bear to tear herself as I cried

You are not only the world
The last thing you had nothing to lose

So I can’t forget your love

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

Have you ever tried to forget those things because there’s value to me
Last time reminding each and every precious to me as my breathing
So I can’t forget your love do you know that I need your love
I need your everything I need you back
Can not wait till you come back
come back to me

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I just want a be with you
I just want a be with you

(You know my heartbeat)

credits :

juju-fied@blogspot

Translation: qitshi-aboutkorea@blogspotHangeul: Romanization@wordpress

Time is (L)over

Time is (L)over by Jang Woo Hyuk

I seriously can't get this song off my mind!
It's my MUST listen to song in the morning, whenever I'm in my car driving.

I freaking love the dance moves in the MV!
ahh~~ I'm in love with Woo Hyuk again ♥

here's the song lyrics!

Hangul

wanna tell u but , 아무런 말도 못하고 네 눈치만 보고 있어 또
이렇게 시간이 갈수록 (내 내가 더)
이 세상이 끝나는 것 같아 girl 우리 시간들이 나 전처럼 흘러가지 않아
너와 둘의 기억도 흐려져가

하나 둘씩 불이 꺼지는 밤 이 오고 하염 없이 그리워했던 시간도 끝나가겠지
What should I do baby What do I do Now Ah Ah Ah Ah

온종일 너의 집 앞에서 기다리는 시간도, 함께한 사진 속에 우리 둘의 시간들도
더 이상 가질 않아 멈춰버린 시간 아래 서 있어

이렇게 끝난 것만 같아, 이대론 미칠 것만 같아
the way we are the where we are the time is over~
내 모든 게 멈춘 것 같아, 이 세상이 끝난 것 같아
the way we are the where we are the time is over~ (time is over)

이제 집 앞 벤치에도 가로등 아래에서도 우리는 없어 슬픈 기억만 있어
꿈이었음 좋겠어 그게 마음 편하겠어 하지만 눈을 떠보면 (time is over)

끝날 것 같지 않아 늦은 밤도 내겐 아침인데
이 기억 우리가 만든 추억, 지우진 않을래 Yeah ae ae

온종일 너의 집 앞에서 기다리는 시간도, 함께한 사진 속에 우리 둘의 시간들도
더 이상 가질 않아 멈춰버린 시간 아래 서 있어

이렇게 끝난 것만 같아, 이대론 미칠 것만 같아
the way we are the where we are the time is over~
내 모든 게 멈춘 것 같아, 이 세상이 끝난 것 같아
the way we are the where we are the time is over~ (time is ove)

GIRL 시간이 됐나봐 더 이상 곁에 둘 수가 없나봐
Girl I’m so sorry 넌 아름답기에 나보다 멋진 남자에게 사랑받으며 살아

Translation

Wanna tell you but, I can’t say anything
And you noticed, I’m only looking at you
AS this time goes by, (I want you more)
I think the world is about to end girl
The time we spend together doesn’t pass as fast
That time with you, only seems like a blurred memory

The night is coming and the lights are turned off one by one
I miss those endless times when they didn’t seem to end
What should I do baby? What do I do now? Ah-ah-ah-ah

This time I’ve been waiting all day
For you in front of your house
Remembering all the pictures we took together
But I can’t stand being here anymore, the time is over

Like this, it seems to be over but its driving me crazy
The way we are, the where we are, the time is over
Everything’s over, the world is over
The way we are, the where we are, the time is over

The time is over, the time is over
The time is over, the time is over

Now I’m on the street bench in front of your house
We’re not even making sad memories
I wish this was all just I dream
Because if it was, I’d be okay with it
But when you open your eyes (time is over)

I don’t think this is over
A late night is the morning for me
I remember the memories we made
I don’t know how I became like this
Yeah-ah-ah

This time I’ve been waiting all day
For you in front of your house
Remembering all the pictures we took together
But I can’t stand being here anymore, the time is over

Like this, it seems to be over but its driving me crazy
The way we are, the where we are, the time is over
Everything’s over, the world is over
The way we are, the where we are, the time is over

Girl time stopped
Maybe there’s no more time left to stay beside you
Girl I’m so sorry, you’re beautiful and wonderful
And this man right here will love you all his life

Romanization

wanna tell u but , amureon maldo motago ne nunchiman bogo isseo tto
ireoke sigani galsurok (nae naega deo)
i sesangi kkeutnaneun geot gata girl uri sigandeuri na jeoncheoreom heulleogaji anha
neowa durui gieokdo heuryeojyeoga

hana dulssik buri kkeojineun bam i ogo hayeom eobsi geuriwohaetdeon sigando kkeutnagagetji
What should I do baby What do I do Now Ah Ah Ah Ah

onjongil neoui jip apeseo gidarineun sigando, hamkkehan sajin soge uri durui sigandeuldo
deo isang gajil anha meomchwobeorin sigan arae seo isseo

ireoke kkeutnan geotman gata, idaeron michil geotman gata
the way we are the where we are the time is over~
nae modeun ge meomchun geot gata, i sesangi kkeutnan geot gata
the way we are the where we are the time is over~ (time is over)

ije jip ap benchiedo garodeung araeeseodo urineun eobseo seulpeun gieongman isseo
kkumieosseum jokesseo geuge maeum pyeonhagesseo hajiman nuneul tteobomyeon (time is over)

kkeutnal geot gatji anha neujeun bamdo naegen achiminde
i gieok uriga mandeun chueok, jiujin anheullae Yeah ae ae

onjongil neoui jip apeseo gidarineun sigando, hamkkehan sajin soge uri durui sigandeuldo
deo isang gajil anha meomchwobeorin sigan arae seo isseo

ireoke kkeutnan geotman gata, idaeron michil geotman gata
the way we are the where we are the time is over~
nae modeun ge meomchun geot gata, i sesangi kkeutnan geot gata
the way we are the where we are the time is over~ (time is ove)

GIRL sigani dwaennabwa deo isang gyeote dul suga eomnabwa
Girl I'm so sorry neon areumdapgie naboda meotjin namjaege sarangbadeumyeo sara

credits: hangeulyric@wordpress and irena040506@wordpress

Rest In Peace.

Mom always tells story about her family.
Last 2 years ago, my uncle came from Singapore to Malaysia to visit us.

It was cute to see that mom actually have someone that she's afraid of.
Or, someone with higher authority than mom :P
My uncle looks very similar to my third uncle, who was also from Singapore.
What's different is, he has a mole, and he speaks with higher authority.
He looked so fit.

My uncle has his own principle of doing things and he's very caring.
He went to see my grandma's graveyard and paid to get the stone recolored
the writings on the tombstone was already faded.

After lunch, before he went back to Singapore,
he gave me red packet of S$ 50. wow.

2 years after, we received a shocking call from my aunt from Singapore,
that this uncle of mine, has diagnosed with cancer 4th stage.

Mom was worried and cried. So did I.
that weekend, mom rushed to make her passport and went to Singapore.

Mom told me that even when she went all the way to Singapore,
first thing that my uncle asked was "Why did you waste your money to come here?"
and the one that I remembered most was, "God is being good to me, I have a good wife, a daughter, a house"

It's good to see him being satisfied with things he got.
Things that he had worked hard for it.

I believe things is sure going to change.
Mom definitely being emo this week with her sickness to care about.
and the news of her brother's death.
I just wished I could lighten my mom's burden.
If I could, I wish the one who was on the hospital bed now is me.
not her.


Rest in peace, uncle.

STEAMBOAT FEST!

Suddenly on Wed, my housemate decided to have steamboat!

I was shocked to see we have so much of steamboat ingredients. huhus..












It's been some time since the last I had steamboat.
and this steamboat starts at 10pm! WOW!
I'm seriously getting rounder.

T_T"