It makes me wonder..

This is another emo post. Just recently the thought struck me again. Did I annoy anyone?

I've possibly had said countless times that I'm an emo person. I'm an introvert. I don't like to be in the crowd, neither am I adventurous enough to give a speech or even to just stand on the stage when everyone's eyes are on me.

I'm lucky to be able to get married to that one person whom I can share all my thoughts with. Besides him, I don't think I have any true best friend. How many really knows me well anyway. It makes me wonder, what have I done throughout my life? I've been given over 20 years to make friends. In the end I'm rather alone. Honestly, I could really just be alone.

Best friends are people whom you always think of, someone you share everything with, someone you don't mind going out of the way for. I have someone like that in my mind but I don't dare to admit that they have me in their mind the same way.

It has been bothering me for very long time. I guess I finally can't hold the thought back anymore.
Really, what is wrong with me.

It's been a while since I write my inner thoughts. It must have been annoying to see that I'm such a drama queen now, "Everybody hates me" kind of thoughts, but that's really how I feel now.

Randomly, what have I been doing with my life?