you..

for 19 years you had took good care of me.
providing me with all the necessities,
making sure that i dont live my life like yours.

telling me over and over again the story of your past.
i never get tired of listening to your past story.
it's interesting. knowing how life was before the 20th century.
i could remember your childhood story as you've told me.
**and i wonder why i dont do well in my history test.. CHEH**
listening to you as you told me your mom's background,
my grandma.. though i got no chance to meet her, to listen to it myself.
but i do feel satisfied that i get to know a lil bit of her.

remembering the times where we used to be in room together..
just the two of us.. chatting and watching tv..
playing monopoly, scrabbles, snakes and ladders.

it hurts me when i reminded myself of the year 98.
when you'r not there in the room..
i was crying to sleep.
though i know nothing bout cancer.
visiting you in hospital lightens my day.
though it still hurts to see you so pale.
i wish i could help..

years pass.. and once again.
you were attacked. by those mean illness.
pneumonia. spleen enlargement..
all those surgeries must have worn you out..

you look weaker day by day.
i could help nothing but to answer back every thing you've said with an annoyed tone.
forgetting how tough it was for you to manage to pull all this through.
you're young anymore.
coming july will be your 50th anniversary.

but as you'v said, i spend more time with my friends rather than with family.
i even said that im much happier in uni rather than at home.
how ignorant was i... =.=" i feel guilty for letting those words out.

you know so much about medical thing.. because you've experienced it.
rheumatoid arthritis .. an illness that became so familiar to you, but new to me.
sjogren's syndrom.. smth that is haunting you now..
making you feel numbness from your feet up to your waist.
dry eyes, dry mouth.. you cant even shed a tear even if you wanted to..
and what's worse? it cant be cured. medical could just ease the pain.

constant visit to hospital for checkups.
bills bills bills... and more bills from my tuition fees. ..
and our allowance.
but still.. you dont forget your responsibilities to your company.
feeling guilty because you have to take medical leaves. =.="
if only i could be like you.. haha..

sorry that i wasnt at home to help you put down the christmas tree..
to help clean up the house.
and even complaining about it. ><"

but you were so cheeky!
knowing that sweet stuffs are not good..
u still have them ><"
lucky i was there to stop you from buying that packet of mars candy =.="
one is more than enough.. ok?

i promise i will be a good girl! :)
thanks mom ^^
love ya!

currently having a break to gasp fresh air
booklet thing almost done..
just waiting for email for logos. :)

and here i thought that kksb's assignment would be easy to handle.
WRONG!
=.=" cant even find articles on it.
ARGH!

havent even start on amna's assignment!!
helphelphelp! T__T
nid articles on
5. Input/Output subsystems

- External Devices

at least 5 articles,
then write a summary on it..
HELP!! .__."

okie. back to work.


**when deadline comes, so do i have to struggle to be "alive"*

ARGH!

to think that my task is almost done.
and
POOF!
gotta switch department's member..
so taddaaa, here i am piled up again.
and im sorta still tied up to my "ex"department.
so i gotta help "tiny witsy" of the task ><"

deadlines! =.="
hate it.

so many last minute changes =.="
and so little member to help out.

assignment!
KKSB.. must submit by 1st feb. otherwise, deduct marks!
and shoot, i have not started any of my 15 pages articles..

CO.. i still havent start anything. ARGH!
deadlines are so close!.

im dead im dead..

to think that SAD's midterm is coming soon..
SAD's project havent even started =.="
i wonder how will it work out .. worried.

gotta explode in any minute.

quitting soon..

being part of many clubs.
killing myself softly.
don't think i could handle it.
yeap.
gonna quit soon.
this sem would be my final sem to give it all out .

don't think i could give enough commitments also.
really don't feel like joining any further..
studies grades are dropping too..

thanks CLICQ for letting me know how to do proposals n such.
making me know more of CS seniors.. you guys are really helpful.
and you're the first club i joined.

thanks PKC too.. for letting me be part of committee..
furthering my knowledge on what i can do.

thanks UBC, although i just joined for the tournament's committee,
but i still feel like i've learned alot. :)
knowing more n more about badminton, altho i dont play much..
hahaha..

thanks Career Unit.. this is really something different!.
i never get to know so many things bout it till i join.
it's not a club.. it's an organisation.
it's. how shall i put it.. DIFFERENT! :)

hmm.. i dont think i've join any other dy..
anw.. thanks!!






anyhow..
i dont think i cn keep quiet isnt it?
i guess i'll be back to join one of them ^^

WHY CAN'T YOU LOAD?

i wanna play!!!
playplayplay! :)

FRIDAY!!..

went shopping with danny..
so happy!~ we went try on those clothes that i usually dont wear :)

we went to watch the movie, Spy next door..
starring jackie chan :)
quite nice tho.

then he too.. try on some new style .
hiakhiakhiak.
so excited, went here.. there.. my feet was tired tho.
but it was worth it!.

at least we bought smth.
smth that ermm.. is kinda out of our usual dressing.
:)

then after that,
we went to Fullhouse for dinner!
yummy!.
shall i say the deco there is quite fascinating?

yes!. it is. hahaha..

Alfredo Spaghetti

ermm.. smth that he ordered :)

forest mushroom cream soup

ICE LEMON TEA!

the deco.

SUPERB ENJOY!
cz the restaurant was playing TVXQ!'s song. HAHA..
their mirotic repackage album!
OMO~!!
i duwanna leave the restaurant..
but it was quite late already.
n danny was abit tired
T_T"

random mission..

Randomness mood : Anytime.

Random mission : To be girly girl for a day. HAHAHA

% Target : 60% lar. ><"

Reason for doing so : I got nothing better to do. XD

Obstacles : My wardrobe. ^^

Duration : ONE DAY.

Deadline : Before I grad lar. :)

Need : Consultant. .___."


HELP!~ T__T"

sigh..

people use THINGS.... don't they?
we use it for our benefit.
for.. ease.
well, THINGS are lifeless..

if people use PEOPLE
for their benefits, ease..

does that make HUMAN another form of lifeless THING?.



hate the fact that I don't know how to say "NO" even when i don't like it.
the fact that not only I felt it that way.. others do so too..
but i still step into it.
making myself look stupid.
There's a limit for being nice.
If only u could get the message.
but the reason why i could hardly turn the favour down..
it's because.. we're friends.
I don't want us to be in cold war or something..
It's difficult.. i hate that feeling..
i don't want to go through it again..

recruition..

Anyone interested to join UNITEN
PKC Chinese New Year night AJK?
Promotion Team & Art & Deco Team currently recruiting members.
do join us to be a part of the committee!.

Interested?
need more information?

please inform me! :)

Joanne - 012-239 1532
(asst. head of A & D)

Thank you!~

darn taxi (23/12/09)

pahh.. still cant forget that stupid taxi driver.

scratched my car when he FORCELY entered my lane from the right .
dumbo.
knowing that he wont have enough space why not WAIT 1st?
i'm already ahead of him..
so rush for wad?
then keep pushing the responsibility..
then go away without any conclusion.

ARGH!!.

yellow taxi, HB 5938..
dun let me see you / ur car again.
i shall scratch it.
with keys, nails, or whatever..

or prolly puncture your tyres!,
pahh.. *ARGHH*


*i reported you already, btw*