Despite the reality of what had happened, subconsciously my mind has not learn to accept the fact yet during the first few months. Many times while my brother had lucid dream about her, I dream of her returning as another person. Someone I know, but she doesn't know who she was nor she remembers who we are. Is this a sign? Funny how in my dream, I know that I had such memory before.
Ever since my brother told us that he had one last dream about her and in that dream she told him that she will leave and be happy in another world, I too, did not have any more such dream about her.
I hope I can dream about her again. I still miss her very much but I cant look at her photo or talk about her without getting all teary. I guess I havent move on. I wish I could.
