Soulless drive.

Something definitely feels wrong today..

My mask remained having a happy face, while beneath it tells a different story.
Those who were observant enough could see the crack there.
Everything I do, no matter how much I could enjoy the outing,
the conversation, the sports I had today.
It still doesn't seem to make me feel any better.
Something REALLY feels wrong.

After receiving that message during my ride home.
That same message that I hate to get.
I had another soulless drive.
I couldn't care much of my speed.
I do not think at all.
I don't care what's gonna happen to me.
Is this a sign of depression?

I thought I was happy all these while.
I thought I was ok with it..
I guess that remains as what I thought I could be.

But things still doesn't agree with me.
I hate to blame it on others for how I feel.
Because I choose to be like this.
I chose to feel the sorrow.
I chose to cry. I chose to think that way.

But now, I blame it on you.